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[Feb. 28th, 2007|10:37 pm] |
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brothers shouldnt be allowed to get married and move out. And there should be a rule about how much notcie they give you. Like...i dont know but alot. Sean's moving out on Sunday and he hasn't even told me yet. I'm happy he's getting married and I know hes excited about the house, I'm just not ready for him to leave. I know that we're both growing up and I do want him to be happy, but I like that I know I can just go to his room anytime and he'll be there. I feel like he likes her family better than ours and that really bothers me. There moving next door to her house. He already spends most of his time with her family, and now we're really never going to see him. I know i sound all dramatic and i don't care I'm upset so I'm gunna whine about it. Yeah moving out should not be allowed. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2007|12:47 am] |
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So i decided that since this is a new year, and i forgot my password...I would start a new LJ. I feel I rwally have neglected the LJ world becasue of myspace, but lately i've been so stressed and I really need a place to vent. My life never seems to get less complicated. I thought as I got older things would get easier and it seems its just the opposite. I feel like everyday I make another decision and I hurt somebody else. All I want is to be happy and thats almost impossiable when I have people telling me they are happy im miserable. I'm so ready to move on with my life. I'm sick of being stuck in this tiny southern town where everything is truly backwards, and people don't know how to move on. I though Carmel was bad this is ten times worse. Although I'm having some trouble moving on to, and I don't know how to change it. There are so many people in my past that keep coming back into my life and I just want to be rid of them, the trouble is im dragging them along with me because I'm scared to let go. I feel like I don't know who I am or what i want anymore and that scares me. I've always been determined and at leas knew what direction I wanted to go in and now I feel like im spinning out of control and the few seconds I get to stop, I look up and don't know where I am. This makes it hard to feel like I fit in anywhere. I'm sure none of this makes much sesne I just need to ramble I think. I'm annoyed that my friends can't give me advice to help, and im even more annoyed I dont know what I need to ask for. I need a break from this place, from some of my friends, from my life. i want to go somewhere, where no one knows me and just start over. But I want to take some people with me. Everything I want contradicts something else I want and I dont know what to do anymore. I need a break. |
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